Today I was Brave.

I know that it is a cliche when people say don't grow up too quickly. Well, It's the truth. Growing up sucks. Today, I had to do something that terrified me and I had to do it all alone.

I braved the singles ward.

That may sound dumb, but in utah you've got friends that will go to the same ward as you and be a comfort to you. Not in California.

I was all alone. Going to a ward where I knew absolutely no one.

I may have had a little break down this morning. I thought "no way!" and "they are all looking to get married! I don't even want to date!" but I just sucked it up and went.  My sister came in while I was getting ready and asked if I was okay. Trying to be brave and hold back the tears I responded with my concerns. She assured me that everything would be fine, it would be hard, but fine.

So off I went.

I sat down on the back row and by myself.  Not very much time passed when a girl came up and asked if I was Chandler. It turned out that this girl was a friend of my sister and my sister had sent her a picture of me, my info and asked her to help me along.


I was so grateful. I didn't even care how creepy it was in the first place. I had someone to be my comfort.

Now, this may seem insignificant to you, but to me this meant a lot. This whole thing means a lot.

I knew that God was watching out for me, I knew that he knew how I felt. I knew that he worked through my sister and her friend to tell me he knew what I was going through. I am very blessed.

I knew today that I can do things that scare me. Life is all about doing things that may be scary, but you do it with faith and you are blessed.

Someone is watching out for you and me.

"Watch what happens."

Chandler

Why do I even have a blog?

I really don't know why I still have this. I never write on this. Twitter is a much better option if you really care about what I have to say.

Anyway...

I live in California now. What? I have been here for five days. It has been the most uncomfortable five days of my life. I am away from my family, which scares me to death. I know, I live with my sister and her husband, but I have never had a good relationship with her. Let's just say this is interesting. I feel like I can't be myself. I don't know if it is because I'm not used to not seeing my parents and sister/best friend everyday. I am trying to figure this out.

But,
I'm in California. It's so beautiful. They weather is perfect, it's not too hot or too cold. I really am so lucky. I get to be with my nephew 24/7. I am away from people who have hurt me. I never have to see them again. I miss Suzie, Natalie, and Elizabeth. I miss them SO much. SERIOUSLY.  I am living a dream life right now. I wish I had a life so it could be more enjoyable.

I know it will get better. It's just hard right now.

This is life, right?

Adventure, fear, hope, dreams.

My great adventure has begun.
Chandler

PS. I am going to see "Catch Me If You Can" (the musical) for my birthday on friday, and I couldn't be more excited!

Here I Go

I never thought I would be writing this. I never thought this would happen. Time flies.

 I'm graduating.

I'm leaving behind so many things I love. I know that this is all part of life, but it still hurts. I am going to miss the drama department. I am going to miss film. I'll miss bawling my eyes out with J when we watch "Power of One" in film. I'll miss laughing at the things J says under his breath. I miss the feeling of home I get when I walk into the drama room. I'll miss our before and after school conversations. I'll miss Suzie, Holly, Elizabeth, Natalie, and Cody. You are truly my best friends and I love you to death.

I'm ready to go.  I will always have a place for you in my heart.

"I've got to know if I can be Astonishing"

I'm enough.

There is a point in everyones life where they think they aren't enough.  I have gone through that for a long time. Today I know that I am enough. Even if I have no support and people are constantly putting me down, I know it.

I have friends who are constantly trying to be someone they aren't. I am sorry. I have noticed a change in you. Where did you go? When did you become so self absorbed? What happened to the odd person that didn't care?

Anyways, I wish some people would understand that they are different.  Am I not good enough for you any more?  I want my old friends back. I want friend who will stop being jerks to everyone around them.

It isn't only hurting me, It is hurting everyone around you.


Chandler

Christmas Magic

I love Christmas time! I love the smell of the pine. I love the glow from the Christmas tree. I love those stupid paper stockings they put up at school. I am a sucker for Christmas. I love Christmas shopping. I love the anticipation of Christmas day and waiting to get and receive Christmas gifts. There is an atmosphere to Christmas and the holiday season. It brings people closer and brings out the good in people. There is genuine love during the holidays. I love that.

The holidays always make me reflect of the past year. I have come a long way in the last year. I like to believe that I have become a better person. I have had experiences that have changed my life for the better.

I am hoping to savor this holiday season and remember all that Christ has given me. I am grateful for all the experiences that I have had this year. I know that this is the season of miracles. Enjoy it.

Merry Christmas!

Chandler

Joe Jonas, Marry Me?

Yes, I am doing to posts in the same day to catch up. Ok? Ok.


Day 3: Pretend there's a movie about you. What is it called? What's the soundtrack? What celebrity plays you, your love interest, your enemy and your best friend? You can cast multiple people if you need to.



TITLE: "Behind the Flab."

SOUNDTRACK: Artist featured would be the Jo bros, David Archuleta, Corbin Bleu, and Jeremy Jordan.

CHANDLER: Mellisa McCarthy, would play chubby me. hilarious. Future (skinny) me would be played by Emma Watson. 

LOVE INTEREST: JOE JONAS DUH! and if his busy (or married) Nick Jonas will have to do. 

BEST FRIENDS: Eliza would be played by Anne Hathaway. Addy would by played by Zooey Deschanel, Morgan would be played by Drew Barrymore. Cody would be played by Neil Patrick Harris. Connor would be played by Miley Cyrus (especially with her new hair cut!) or Jim Parsons.  

Signing off. 

Chandler

"BTW your lip gloss is so not glossy anymore!"

DAY 2: Write about your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

OK?


I am a cancer. 

"Cancer horoscope suggests that Cancerians are quick to fall into depression, which may find a momentary outlet with people around them but that is not a permanent state. Cancerians often have a keen sense of humor and can be great entertainers as well. 

Lives of Cancerians can be affected by their mood shifts. Though they are not impulsive but they may often suffer from mood swings. They can get angry for no obvious reasons. Hence, Cancerians thrive best around sensible and kind people. "

I agree with this completely. This hits my personality spot on. I am one to get depressed easily and then I am a person to be happy the next day. I am funny, we all know that (don't deny it). I try to be a good entertainer, because I love to entertain.  I am moody though.  I like nice people. 

Beware. 

Chandler

PS. If you know what movie the title of this blog post is from, I will make you cookies.  (Connor or Eliza you should get this)