Today I was Brave.

I know that it is a cliche when people say don't grow up too quickly. Well, It's the truth. Growing up sucks. Today, I had to do something that terrified me and I had to do it all alone.

I braved the singles ward.

That may sound dumb, but in utah you've got friends that will go to the same ward as you and be a comfort to you. Not in California.

I was all alone. Going to a ward where I knew absolutely no one.

I may have had a little break down this morning. I thought "no way!" and "they are all looking to get married! I don't even want to date!" but I just sucked it up and went.  My sister came in while I was getting ready and asked if I was okay. Trying to be brave and hold back the tears I responded with my concerns. She assured me that everything would be fine, it would be hard, but fine.

So off I went.

I sat down on the back row and by myself.  Not very much time passed when a girl came up and asked if I was Chandler. It turned out that this girl was a friend of my sister and my sister had sent her a picture of me, my info and asked her to help me along.


I was so grateful. I didn't even care how creepy it was in the first place. I had someone to be my comfort.

Now, this may seem insignificant to you, but to me this meant a lot. This whole thing means a lot.

I knew that God was watching out for me, I knew that he knew how I felt. I knew that he worked through my sister and her friend to tell me he knew what I was going through. I am very blessed.

I knew today that I can do things that scare me. Life is all about doing things that may be scary, but you do it with faith and you are blessed.

Someone is watching out for you and me.

"Watch what happens."

Chandler

Why do I even have a blog?

I really don't know why I still have this. I never write on this. Twitter is a much better option if you really care about what I have to say.

Anyway...

I live in California now. What? I have been here for five days. It has been the most uncomfortable five days of my life. I am away from my family, which scares me to death. I know, I live with my sister and her husband, but I have never had a good relationship with her. Let's just say this is interesting. I feel like I can't be myself. I don't know if it is because I'm not used to not seeing my parents and sister/best friend everyday. I am trying to figure this out.

But,
I'm in California. It's so beautiful. They weather is perfect, it's not too hot or too cold. I really am so lucky. I get to be with my nephew 24/7. I am away from people who have hurt me. I never have to see them again. I miss Suzie, Natalie, and Elizabeth. I miss them SO much. SERIOUSLY.  I am living a dream life right now. I wish I had a life so it could be more enjoyable.

I know it will get better. It's just hard right now.

This is life, right?

Adventure, fear, hope, dreams.

My great adventure has begun.
Chandler

PS. I am going to see "Catch Me If You Can" (the musical) for my birthday on friday, and I couldn't be more excited!