I am very tired.

I am exhausted. I am going to bed.

Good Night.

Chandler

P.S. I am going to the city that never sleeps on Wednesday. SO EXCITED.

You. Me. Disney.

I believe in Magic. Not just any magic, Disney magic. 

This past weekend I went to California with my sister Ashlee, my nephew Cade, and my niece Andelin. I was really excited to go for two reasons. One, I was going to Disneyland. Two, I wanted to escape for a while.  

I have never really known what I wanted after high school, but I now know that I want to make magic happen for people. I want to work for Disney.  I want to make a child smile, I want to make them laugh, I want to hear the sheer excitement in their voices. I want to make magic. 

I want to work on films for Disney. I'm thinking I want to produce movies. I love the idea of creating something that could bring someone joy. I love that. I want to be in Florida or California, somewhere away from here. 

I know that there is something bigger for me out there than just being a mom, or a teacher. I am meant for something more.  I don't exactly know what that is yet, but it has to do with Disney. I can't wait to find out what that is.

When I was in California, we went to the Irvine Spectrum. In that shopping center there was a blind man singing and playing guitar. It was amazing. In that same area there was a woman who was doing palm reading, then there was a little boy who was dancing to the blind mans song. I thought about that moment for a while. I came to this conclusion. They were all people. People with a purpose. Everyone has a purpose here  in this world. For some it is to be parents, a spouse, a teacher, a friend, an enemy. These are all people who have an impact on us. That is their purpose. 

Disney is my purpose. 

"All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them."

   Walt Disney

Chandler

It's A Beautiful Day In The Neighborhood.

I love the sun. I love the warmth and happiness it gives me. I love life. Life is beautiful. I am enjoying the last week of school, but I am also dreading it. It is a long week. I am excited to move on, but I don't ever want to forget about this year. This year was hard. No doubt about it, but it was also one of the most rewarding years of my life. I have learned several things through this year. I am grateful for that. I thought I would share with whoever is reading this some of the things that make life great. 1. Family- They are there for you when no one else is. Thanks RKMACCCABGMC. 2. Music- Who doesn't love music? It is a great escape from the stresses of the world. 3. Friends- I have awesome friends. I love them with all my heart. Thanks SNAMEMKCBC. Just to name a few. 4. Modern Family- The gut wrenching laughter of my week. 5. Drama 4 and Musical Theater- THE BEST PEOPLE EVER. 6. Laughter- It truly is the best medicine. That isn't even the complete list. I am grateful for the wonderful people in my life. I am truly blessed. Call Me Maybe. Chandler PS. If you understood that last reference, you win.

Sunday Funday

I love Sundays. I truly do. Sundays are a day of relaxing, enjoying family, and taking in the beauties of the earth. I personally think Sundays are the days with the best weather. I love going to church, it may sometimes feel so long, but it is just a chance to start again. I love the warmth that Sunday's bring. I never am cold on sundays. I love that I have family around and that we all love each other so much. I love (and hate) being excited for something. It usually takes up all of my thoughts until it is over. I am anxious to start Senior Year, but I really don't want these next couple weeks to go fast. Some of my best friends will be graduating. Don't leave me with the crazies! I love quiet. I love listening to my dog snore. I love listening to the air blowing throughout the house. I love the sounds of my fingers on the keyboard. I love quiet. I love my Dad. He is the definition of a gentleman. He is the most remarkable human being I have ever know. He deserves a medal. This Sunday, be optimistic. It will bring you joy. Appreciate the little things about your day. Tell your family you love them. Our task is to become our best selves. One of God's greatest gifts to us is the joy of trying again, for no failure ever need be final." --Thomas S. Monson, "The Will Within," Ensign, May 1987 Chandler

Thought of the day.

MY ONE ACT IS AWESOME! and this...

To the Girls...

This post is dedicated to my favorite women and friends that inspire me everyday. Morgan Jo Nelson and Addy Sue Baird. I love you women more than you could ever know. You two are remarkable. I look up to you in so many ways. Let me name them.You make me feel like a million bucks.You have confidence in me when I don't have any confidence at all. You tell me I am good enough when I know I am not.You tell me I am awesome when I feel like dirt. You tell me I am worth it. You tell me I am special. Most of all you tell me that I am important to you and that you have my back.I love reading your blogs they inspire me each and everyday.I love your sense of style. Seriously you should be supermodels. I love your laugh.I love that you put up with my warped sense of humor. I love that you are willing to listen to me.I love that you know when I am upset.I love that you have great taste in music. I love your sense of humor. I love that you have your own opinions. I love that you are brave.I love that you are strong.I love you. You two are the first friends in my entire life that I feel would have my back at anytime no matter what.Thank you, sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

Just put on a happy face... Or try to

Seriously?!? I did not think this would be so hard. Maybe it is just this week... Yes, it is just this week. No one understands that my heart is truly broken. It wasn't from some boy, or someone dying. It was from not being able to do Drama, some people say that's a stupid reason to be depressed. Well, When all you do is think about, listen to, watch is musicals or drama things; you have the right. I've cried more this week than in my entire life. Everytime I look at a picture of my friends in costume, I cry and want to scream. Why? Why did this happen to me? Well, I don't know why. I know that God sent me this trial for a reason. I had no idea it would be this hard.
No one gets it. Not even my best friends get it. When I try and leave them hints that I am dying inside, they don't get it. They treat me like I don't know squat and should move on. Trust me I AM trying. I just need help getting through this at school, when I am surrounded by it all. I just need someone that I can cry to right now. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through.
My only relief is singing. I sing when I can't deal with the pain. I sing all the musical theater and Christmas songs I possibly can. It is my greatest blessing. My voice is truly a blessing. I am grateful for that.

I am also grateful for the musical, "Next To Normal." I saw this back in October. It is one of the greatest shows ever written. Lately, Whenever I listen to it there is always a particular song that makes me smile. I am grateful for this song.

Light, Next To Normal

Natalie:
We need some light.
First of all, we need some light.
You can't sit here in the dark.
And all alone, it's a sorry sight.
It's just you and me.
We'll live, you'll see.

Dan:
Night after night,
We'd sit and wait for the morning light.
But we've waited far too long,
For all that's wrong to be made right.

Diana:
Day after day,
Wishing all our cares away.
Trying to fight the things we feel,
But some hurts never heal.
Some ghost are never gone,
But we go on,
We still go on.

And you find some way to survive
And you find out you don't have to be happy at all,
To be happier alive.

Natalie:
Day after day,
Give me clouds, and rain and gray.
Give me pain, if that's what's real.

Henry and Natalie:
It's the price we pay to feel.

Dan and Diana:
The price of love is loss,

Dan:
But still we pay.

Dan and Henry:
We love anyway.

Gabe:
And when the night has finally gone.
And when we see the new day dawn.
We'll wonder how we wandered for so long, so blind.
The wasted world we thought we knew,
The light will make it look brand new.
So

All:
Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Let it
Shine, shine, shine.

Day after day (day after day),
We'll find the will to find our way.
Knowing that the darkest skies will someday see the sun.

Dan:
When our long night is done,

Dan and Natalie:
There will be light.

Diana:
(There will be light.
There will be light.)

All:
There will be light.
When we open up our light.
Sons and daughters, husbands, wives.
Can fight that fight.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.
There will be light.




THERE WILL BE LIGHT

Chandi