I'm enough.

There is a point in everyones life where they think they aren't enough.  I have gone through that for a long time. Today I know that I am enough. Even if I have no support and people are constantly putting me down, I know it.

I have friends who are constantly trying to be someone they aren't. I am sorry. I have noticed a change in you. Where did you go? When did you become so self absorbed? What happened to the odd person that didn't care?

Anyways, I wish some people would understand that they are different.  Am I not good enough for you any more?  I want my old friends back. I want friend who will stop being jerks to everyone around them.

It isn't only hurting me, It is hurting everyone around you.


Chandler

Christmas Magic

I love Christmas time! I love the smell of the pine. I love the glow from the Christmas tree. I love those stupid paper stockings they put up at school. I am a sucker for Christmas. I love Christmas shopping. I love the anticipation of Christmas day and waiting to get and receive Christmas gifts. There is an atmosphere to Christmas and the holiday season. It brings people closer and brings out the good in people. There is genuine love during the holidays. I love that.

The holidays always make me reflect of the past year. I have come a long way in the last year. I like to believe that I have become a better person. I have had experiences that have changed my life for the better.

I am hoping to savor this holiday season and remember all that Christ has given me. I am grateful for all the experiences that I have had this year. I know that this is the season of miracles. Enjoy it.

Merry Christmas!

Chandler

Joe Jonas, Marry Me?

Yes, I am doing to posts in the same day to catch up. Ok? Ok.


Day 3: Pretend there's a movie about you. What is it called? What's the soundtrack? What celebrity plays you, your love interest, your enemy and your best friend? You can cast multiple people if you need to.



TITLE: "Behind the Flab."

SOUNDTRACK: Artist featured would be the Jo bros, David Archuleta, Corbin Bleu, and Jeremy Jordan.

CHANDLER: Mellisa McCarthy, would play chubby me. hilarious. Future (skinny) me would be played by Emma Watson. 

LOVE INTEREST: JOE JONAS DUH! and if his busy (or married) Nick Jonas will have to do. 

BEST FRIENDS: Eliza would be played by Anne Hathaway. Addy would by played by Zooey Deschanel, Morgan would be played by Drew Barrymore. Cody would be played by Neil Patrick Harris. Connor would be played by Miley Cyrus (especially with her new hair cut!) or Jim Parsons.  

Signing off. 

Chandler

"BTW your lip gloss is so not glossy anymore!"

DAY 2: Write about your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

OK?


I am a cancer. 

"Cancer horoscope suggests that Cancerians are quick to fall into depression, which may find a momentary outlet with people around them but that is not a permanent state. Cancerians often have a keen sense of humor and can be great entertainers as well. 

Lives of Cancerians can be affected by their mood shifts. Though they are not impulsive but they may often suffer from mood swings. They can get angry for no obvious reasons. Hence, Cancerians thrive best around sensible and kind people. "

I agree with this completely. This hits my personality spot on. I am one to get depressed easily and then I am a person to be happy the next day. I am funny, we all know that (don't deny it). I try to be a good entertainer, because I love to entertain.  I am moody though.  I like nice people. 

Beware. 

Chandler

PS. If you know what movie the title of this blog post is from, I will make you cookies.  (Connor or Eliza you should get this)

I hate challenges.

Jeremy Jordan from Newsies and I 

So my friend Connor created a 30 day challenge and told us all to do it. I objected at first but then gave in. Here goes nothing.


DAY 1:

This is me. I love Disney and anything that has to do with it ( with the exception of Tim Burton he freaks me out a little).  I have very strong opinions that I keep to myself. I love Drama and musicals. I LOVE New York and will live there at some point in my life. I love California as well. I am an Aunt to 4 almost 5. I love babysitting, and love to spoil. I am a generous individual and I try to be kind to everyone.

If you need to know more than that you are a stalker or you think I am super attractive. Whichever you prefer.

This is Me

I am not a writer. I can't create a butterfly garden of a picture through words.  I can't write profound thoughts, most of the time,  I don't even get the profound thought until a day later.  I put my thought down and it's a mess. This is today's post. Please Forgive me. 

I am obsessed with Theater. From the carpet on the floors, to the emotional purging on stage.

I love New York and Disney. 

I love people, but feel awkward ninety-nine percent of the time. 

I love my family, but don't stand up for myself around them enough. 

I am not a typical teenager girl who flirts 24/7. I still get nervous and sweaty around boys. I do get my nails done, but not for the girl-ish feeling, it is because they make my fingers look smaller. I don't usually watch Chick flicks. I watch movies that will make me think or cry, or laugh at stupid boy movies. 

I work at a Golf Course with all boys for crying out loud. 

I am Chandler LaRaine. I was named after Chandler Bing from Friends.  My middle name was my grandfathers name. 

I am an overweight teenager girl, who wants to be known. 

This is who I am, and I am just beginning to be ok with that.

There's Change Coming

Holy Cow, I am a Senior! Not like a 55 year old plus, senior, but a senior in high school.

With that in mind,  I just got my senior pictures back.

They weren't as bad as I thought they would be, but, you know they still are the standard senior pictures that ninety-nine percent of the kids at my school will have.  I don't want to be like everyone else.

 Everyone and their dog have been asking me what I am going to do after high school.

I answer College at UVU (hopefully).

Doing What?

Undecided.

I am so confused because I don't know what I want anymore.

I love Disney and it would be the more logical thing to do, but my heart says "Follow Your Dream."

I am not sure exactly what my dream is. I went through the normal career changes for a child, I was going to be a rockstar, then a professional golfer, then an actor, then a teacher, and now what?

I am lost and I pray that God will help me figure this out soon.

I don't want to be the Junior at UVU (hopefully)  who has an undecided major.

"Live and Let Die"

Chandler

PS. I become very popular in the texting world when I am on vacation.